6 Mar 2011

... wish ... thanks.

5 Mar 2011

have you forgotten me oh jesse? are your promises nothing? are my sins such that i must be shunned? am i made so low that there is no hope for me? will i forever be lonely? will i forever be alone? my heart grieves in its brokenness, my mind in its solitude. what reason do i have for living if i am to be alone? well, i have heard that you dwell in our brokenness. if that is true, then how much further must i be broken? will you come and dwell in the shards of my own life?

4 Mar 2011 (2)

what peace is this that blooms fresh as a flower in the morning of the desert? as a rose that blooms in the morning dew, your peace has entered into my heart. oh master of love and commander of peace, welcome to my humble abode. please, stay as long as you wish. i am content to listen to your words and bask in the warmth of your companionship. oh, jesse, let me rest in your arms that hold me. let me sleep in the shadow of your love. let me take food and water from your wisdom and clothe myself in your will. sweet friend of mine, come and dwell in my brokeness.

4 Mar 2011

hey jesse. how are you? today has been interesting to say the least. i wonder what will happen tonight. thanks for providing people to help me along. i was wondering if you would mind visiting with me sometime. well, until then i guess youll know where to find me. i love you.

3 Mar 2011

i dont know what im doing. i dont know why im here. what is the purpose? why? why, if im going to be alone?

3 Mar 2011

well, i dont know how im supossed to be hopeful when i really dont have much hope. i just dont see anything here. i really dont see anything when i look at korea either. i just cant see anything. well, jesse, if youre still caring, im still praying for miracles. i dont know what else to call them anymore.

2 Mar 2011

thank you jesse. i know you will provide. its hard to remember to have faith sometimes, but i know you will provide. thank you for giving me the courage to say something. thank you for the company. i love you. i dont know where im going in life, but i trust that you will use my life somehow. in your will.