k, god, jesse, why? why am i here? why do i constantly have to be the odd one out? why do i constantly have to be the one thats overlooked? why am i always the one that everyone passively shuns? i dont understand why you couldnt just have let me die in iraq. why do i have to be here? i dont understand it. im not good at anything. i cant sing, or play music, im not a great looking person, i dont have a lot of charm, im not very funny, im not entertaining. heck my parents are more entertaining than me. even my friends think my parents are cooler and better than me. im not especially smart or talented at drawing or art. im not very emotionally stable... god, im just so... WORTHLESS!!!! i dont understand why you want me or what im good for. and why cant i end my own life? whats up with that? why am i suppossed to be here when theres no point? im not sharing my life with anyone. no one else is with me to share in my life and to share their life with me. what the fuck man? you and i both know that this life is worthless if it cant be shared, so what the fuck?
oh and showing me a bunch of girls and then effectively blocking them off from me is not funny man. thats sick and sadistic. not something i would call cool for an all powerful god. kinda makes me want to say fuck you and go to hell. oh and whats up with making women with a creep meter so sensitive that even male animals set the goddamned thing off. WHAT THE FUCK GUY!!!??? is it not bad enough that some of us have to set the low end of the desirable bar? do we really have to have insult piled on top of injury? i dont know what to do anymore. i just dont know.